Living Out Your Calling
Last weekend, I joined a few others women in my area and we watched the simulcast of the IF: gathering conference. I didn’t know much about it but knew people like Angie Smith, Ann Voskamp, and Jen Hatmaker were speaking so I knew it would be interesting.I hardly knew anyone attending the local event but I felt God nudging me to attend. Thankfully, Jared graciously offered to watch Olivia Friday night and Saturday afternoon so my schedule was free.
I wish I could find the words to articulate how moving this conference was for me. It came at a time when my heart needed it. After surviving the first year of motherhood, I have been feeling a desire to stick my big toe back into women’s ministry. Not that I haven’t been involved here or there, but with the combination of moving to a new area and having a baby, I have given myself some space to adjust. I have more to say on that but because Olivia is waking up from her nap, I can just scratch the surface for now.
One of the predominate thoughts I took away from the conference was – Are you living out your calling? I realized last weekend that though my calling is the same (vulnerably sharing my life with women to point them to Christ), it looks quite different now that I am a mom. I have wrestled all year with the fact that I don’t have time to blog or meet women for coffee like I did in the past. And in many ways that has left me feeling like I am not “living out my calling.” But the major ah-ha I had (and this may seem obvious to you but I am a slow learner at times!) is that I need to change my expectations for what “living out my calling” looks like now as a mom. As one of the girls at the conference encouraged me last weekend, it may mean inviting people into my home and life amid the craziness of an active one-year-old. And in addition to my calling of ministering to women, I also have a calling to raise Olivia to know and love Jesus.
So many thoughts rolling around in my head but I wanted to write some of them down while they are still fresh (and Olivia is sleeping!). She is awake now so though I have more on my mind, I must end for now. I will leave you with a few quotes that I appreciated from various speakers this weekend. If you listened to the simulcast, what quotes stood out to you?
“You can be delivered but not be FREE.” (Referring to the Israelites in Joshua 5) -Christine Caine
“Believe the truth of God’s Word over the facts of your circumstances.” -Christine Caine
“Measuring sticks always lie. Jesus isn’t about scales; He’s about grace…They don’t make a scale that could ever measure value, worth, or the weight of a soul.” -Ann Voskamp
“Walk through life with a measuring stick and your eyes get so small you never see God.” -Ann Voskamp
“God doesn’t want to use you, He wants to be with you. He is Emmanuel…We can get caught up in the doing instead of the being” -Sarah Besse
“Free people free people.” -Bianca Olthoff
“The root of anxiety is unfulfilled responsibility…You know you were made for more and you’re not doing it.” -Rebekah Lyons
“Calling is when your talents and burdens collide.” -Rebekah Lyons
“The sin that entangles is so deceiving…May we reject the things that numb us of our captivity.” -Rebekah Lyons
(I didn’t take any notes of Jen Hatmaker’s talk because I was listening to it in bed at midnight!)
A few questions to consider and ones that I am pondering:
Based off of Hebrews 11, what do you need to throw off?
In what ways are you entangled?
What is holding you back?
What keeps you from living out God’s purposes for you?
What risk is God calling you toward?
The song that is on my mind that they sang during the conference and one that I keep playing is Oceans by Hillsong United. If you haven’t heard it, listen here.